I saw something amazing as I
drove in to church Sunday morning. It moved me to tears. It was very much on my
mind during worship, and I finally got up and walked to the back of the
sanctuary to speak to Pastor Greg. I told him briefly what I had seen, and then
said, “I don’t know if it's appropriate to share.” He was intrigued, and he
seemed to feel in his spirit that it fit in with God’s direction for the
service, so he said he would call on me before he got up to preach.
This is what I said to the
congregation:
I just
wanted to share something that I saw on the way in this morning. I left at
9:30, and before I pulled away, I dialed in to the zoom room so I could
intercede for the service with Rita and Lorne on the prayer team as I drove. I
got to the Coal Lake hill and, totally predictably, I lost the signal as I came
down the hill.
As I
came through the valley, I looked out on the water and saw something. I didn’t
know what it was at first. It was a white circle with gold in the center. I
thought, What is that? and I looked again. It was a flock of eight or
ten pelicans in a perfect circle with their bodies outward and their beaks
inward. Their beaks were all touching in the center. It looked like spokes of a
wheel with white around the outside and this brilliant gold of their beaks
inward.
And it
just walloped me—with the glory of it. I believe it’s prophetic, although I
have no idea what it would mean. But I do know they were declaring the glory of
God. Just in the middle of an ordinary morning, ordinary birds, doing something
extraordinary.
Pastor Greg‘s sermon was on
unity. Further on into it, he began to speak from John 17, Jesus’ high priestly
prayer. As he spoke of the harmony and beauty that come when people serve God
in unity, I begin to think of the pelicans again. And then he said it himself:
“Makes me think of something I heard about some birds.”
I have written before about
how all living creatures submit to the Spirit of God with the notable exception
of mankind. (Only man has been given the choice of whether he will listen to
God or not.) I believe that those pelicans were moving in response to an
impulse from the Spirit of God to gather in an organized and beautiful
formation. And that made me think, as the sermon continued, But what
glory will be displayed when mankind aligns themselves with what God is doing
in the earth and they do it together!
It wasn’t until much later
that I suddenly remembered I had prayed along the lines of John 17 with Lorne
and Rita on my way in to church, after my Bluetooth got reception again.
Another scripture had been on my mind the previous few days: “But the natural
man does not receive the things of the Spirit of God, for they are foolishness
to him; nor can he know them, because they are spiritually discerned”
(1 Corinthians 2:14). In other words, sometimes when we share the good news of
the kingdom of God, people cannot grasp what we are saying because their
spirits have not yet been activated; and yet their spirits are where these
spiritual truths must be processed. It’s like trying to open a program on a
computer when you don’t have the software to handle it. So on the zoom room, I began to pray
along the lines of the scripture in Corinthians, and then I found myself
praying from John 17.
Help us,
Lord, to speak Your words with Your power, that people would truly hear and
receive the good news, that that supernatural conception would take place,
where the spermata [1 Peter 1:23] of Your word fertilizers the
seed of faith in their hearts and brings forth new life, new life in their
spirits, so that they have the ability to understand the things of the Spirit
of God.
Help us,
Jesus, to remember what You said and really understand what it means: that You
are in us and we are in You, and together in You we are in the Father [John
17:20-23]. Let this vital understanding be a daily part of our lives as we live
and breathe and walk with You, so that this spiritual life can be passed on to
others.
Although I did not clue in
when Pastor Greg used this same passage from John 17 in his message an hour or
so later, it afterward struck me as quite amazing. And yet we should not be
surprised. As Graham Cooke said, “We cannot help but be prophetic; it is in our
very bones. It is who God made us to be” (Approaching the Heart of Prophecy,
p. 6). For those not familiar with prophecy in this sense, it is not so much a
foretelling of future events, although it can include that; it is a telling
forth of the mind and heart of God on a matter. With Pastor Greg preaching from
the same passage that I had been praying from, it seems these
verses of John 17 were part of God’s own message to the body of
Christ that morning. We come to expect such synchronicity as we understand
another part of the 1 Corinthians 2 passage quoted above.
For
what man knows the things of a man except the spirit of the man which is
in him? Even so no one knows the things of God except the Spirit of
God. Now we have received ... the Spirit who is from God, that
we might know the things that have been freely given to us by God” (v.11-12,
NKJV). “ God has revealed them to us through His Spirit”
(v.10).
I will put this another way:
There is no way I can really understand what you think and feel. Only your
spirit knows that. And so, obviously, no one can really know what God thinks
and feels. Only His Spirit knows. Oh, but wait a minute! God has given
us His Holy Spirit, and He lives right inside us. So guess what? We can perceive
God’s thoughts. Like I just quoted above, “[He] has revealed them to us through
His Spirit.”
* * * * *
Very early Tuesday morning
during my quiet time, I brought some things to God that I was struggling with.
I am trying to learn to bring daily matters to Him to find rest and guidance.
One of these things was the cover for the republishing of my Made in
Heaven book.
I had begun to work on it in
earnest a couple of weeks earlier, sitting at the dining room table with my
laptop, perusing all the excellent photos on the various royalty-free sites.
But none of these photos was doing anything for me. Frankly, the images set
forward in the many couples photos I looked at seemed sadly lacking as I
compared them with the magnificent stature and countenance of my husband,
especially the way he looked on our wedding day. As I looked at picture after
picture, always moving on again, an image from our wedding album planted itself
firmly in my mind, with this thought: “You could crop it right above the lips to
give it some anonymity.” I dug out the old seldom-seen album and found the
picture. So beautiful! And the amazing thing was, our lips were in almost
perfect horizontal alignment, so the cropping idea really would work. I
submitted the photo and my thoughts to the woman who has been designing my book
covers of late, and so began the back-and-forth process. But a couple of weeks
had gone by now and it just wasn’t coming together.
Here, as in the rest of my
life, I was trying to trust God that I really do have the mind of Christ, as He
tells us in the last verse of 1 Corinthians 2. I am trying to learn not to lean
on my own understanding but to acknowledge Him in the process and let Him
direct my paths, as He counsels us in Proverbs 3:5-6.
I think it was Graham Cooke
who said that sometimes we have trouble hearing God because we expect Him to
speak to us through our natural ears and our natural thoughts, when actually He
can and will speak to us in many different ways. In fact, I find that He most
often bypasses the natural channels, possibly so that our flesh is not so
easily able to interfere with the message.
So I told God I would not try
to think harder about the cover but would give it over to Him and forget about
it until He brought it up again.
(“You delegated it,”
said my daughter Rachel when I told her about it. She understands these things
because she works in a managerial position. “Yes!” I replied, “and now that
I’ve done that, I mustn’t micromanage what I’ve turned over to Him!”)
So now I deliberately turned
my thoughts away from my conundrum and toward a scripture I had been intending
to check out ever since I saw the pelicans. Because they looked like a wheel
out there on the water, they had made me think of Ezekiel‘s vision. I looked it
up in Ezekiel 1:5-21 and was musing on this strange description of the four
creatures and their wheels when suddenly I was interrupted by a flash of
inspiration coming across my mind.
The problem with the cover
had been that having the picture cropped just above the lips, at the top of the
book cover the way I had imagined it, could cause a problem when it came to
trimming the cover. One never knows exactly where the cutline will fall, and
yet for it to look right, it had to be cropped perfectly. What had just jarred
into my mind in the middle of my scripture reading was that the picture should
be on the bottom half of the cover with the title and subtitle above it, such
that the edge of the picture would be set, written in stone as it were, against
the bottom of the subtitle box.
I jumped up, went to my
computer, and printed off what we had so far of the cover so I could cut it up
and rearrange it and think about it. I was swept away with this for a good
hour, and then I headed back upstairs for the “second shift” of sleep I always
need. I settled down and, as a peaceful way to drift into sleep, opened the
Scriptures back up to where I had been before God interrupted me.
I had been in Ezekiel 1:5-21,
reading just those few verses; but lying there in bed with Bible Gateway’s
mobile app, it occurred to me that I should start at the beginning of the
chapter to get the context and see if there was something else God wanted me to
see. I had been reading from the Young’s Literal Translation (1862), but now as
I scrolled back to the first verse, I thought, I should read this in
one of the modern translations. After brief consideration, I chose the
New Living Translation and opened it up. What I read there absolutely riveted
me.
For the last many days I had
been doing a final proofread of the story of our marriage. I had been reminded
again and again of God’s moving in our relationship: how we prayed that God
would give us everything in marriage that He ever intended it to be; how He
promised us, through a devotional we happened to read together on the night Greg proposed, that He would make us one, even as the Father
and Son are one (John 17 again); that the kingdom of God would fully come in
our marriage and bring the healing we both needed. All this caused me to marvel
and give thanks over and over again for the wonderful man God brought into my
life back then. And then with the work on the front cover, I had been spending
long hours staring at a photo that was taken on our wedding day, July 31 of the
summer when I was 30 years old.
Now I had turned to Ezekiel
1:1, NLT, and this is what I read: “On July 31 of my thirtieth year, ... the
heavens were opened and I saw visions of God.”
I was so amazed and excited;
the awareness of God’s glory was so intense in that moment that I didn’t think
I would ever be able to go back to sleep. But sleep I did, deeply and
restfully. Later on, after I had begun my day again, I went to my computer and
checked that verse in the other 50 English translations on Bible Gateway’s full
version. Every other one of them expressed the date by the Hebrew calendar, “in
the fourth month, in the fifth day of the month,” except for the Living Bible,
the predecessor of the NLT, which had the date roughly pegged as “late June.” I
had randomly chosen the only English translation that had carefully pinpointed
the date of Ezekiel’s vision on our calendar, and it was the same date as our
wedding. Furthermore, I was 30 years old and Ezekiel says he was “in my
thirtieth year” when God showed him His kingdom and His glory.
With full confidence now of
God’s involvement and blessing, work on the cover went forward in the direction
I believed He had shown me. When at last it was mostly to my satisfaction, I
sought out a couple of opinions. Our daughter Melissa was up for a visit; I
showed it to her first. Although she was careful to find some positive things
to say, the main drift was that she felt the photo was too dated to appeal to
my target audience: young adults, especially young women. My best friend, when
I sent it to her, felt the same way. I had sensed the same from the designer,
when she encouraged me, earlier on, to look again at the royalty-free sites.
And in my gut, I knew they were right, from a marketing point of view. I know
that the cover of a book is the most important part in selling it, as that is
how people judge a book (in spite of the proverbial advice to the contrary!).
Now I was in a quandary about what direction to take.
In my questioning, I was
drawn again to Ezekiel’s vision: “All four wheels looked alike and were made
the same; each wheel had a second wheel turning crosswise within it” (1:16,
NLT). It’s been suggested that this describes a gyroscope. A gyroscope is
an instrument for orienting oneself and finding the right direction (for
instance when piloting an aircraft) when the natural senses might leave one in
danger of confusion and error. Surely allowing the Spirit of God to orient us
and determine the correct direction when we are uncertain and in need of
guidance is the safest and wisest way to proceed. The creatures and their
wheels “went in whatever direction the spirit chose” (v.12, NLT).
After Ezekiel’s vision, God
began to share messages with him that he was to take to the rebellious nation
of Israel. But first He gave him this advice, which I take to heart as well:
“Let all my words sink deep into your own heart first. Listen to them carefully
for yourself” (Ezekiel 3:10, NLT).
For a while I had had a
sinking feeling that in spite of my consulting God on the matter—and receiving
His three powerful responses, I was going to have to start over on the cover
and yield in the end to worldly wisdom.
But as I deliberated back and
forth about whether to choose the world’s marketing savvy or what I believed
were God’s directives regarding the cover design, I saw clearly how God had
interjected these ideas into my mind independent of my own thought processes. I
could not pretend they were just some more of my own thoughts, on par with the
“marketing savvy” that was now coming my way, to be accepted or rejected on a
whim. They stood out clearly as God’s counsel in the matter. I was free to
choose, certainly, but why would I choose in the line of common sense, my “own
understanding” (Proverbs 3:5), when I had asked God to supernaturally direct
me—and He had?
Perhaps the most important
lesson of this story is that we learn to yield our intelligence and, as do the
lowlier creatures of land and sea and air, hear and obey the subtle promptings
of the Spirit of God. With my whole life I am trying to live by the rhythms of
the kingdom of heaven. Here was an opportunity to throw my entire lot in with
God (and what I understood Him to be saying) and let Him prove Himself to
me—let Him establish the reality of His guidance and the wisdom of His counsel.
I will choose to submit to the gentle nudging of His Spirit and allow Him to
direct me, the same way He directed a small flock of pelicans into a simple and
spectacular formation, for my eyes only, early on a Sunday morning.